Working more hours than humans should ever do is not fun when you have five children.  I have to work to cover the bills and give the family what they need and deserve.  I miss them.  I miss this.  I have no venting spots anymore. well I do, here,  but no time. Sad.  My life is all about work and I still managing to live paycheck to paycheck.  I am still baffeled by the fact i have taken on 2 FT jobs.  One during the day, various shifts day/eve and the other overnight.  No i do not sleep much.  But i guess i stopped that when the triplets were born. Or really, mid way thrugh the pregnancy.  My babies are 2 already.  Dont know when that happened.  I cried tonight looking at pictures in my living room of the kids.  I see them in passing.  How horrible is that?  I hate that this must be.  It is my fact of life for now.  If you are actually reading this, kiss your babies.  Be so thankful that you can see them and have the stained nightshirt on for 2 days cause you had no enegry to change. Or maybe remembered to brush your teeth this morning.  I remembered complaining abou these things.  let me tell you, I would trade it all back.  This grass is NOT greener on this side.  I guess there could be a happy medium. But my world dosent not allow me to see it yet.  I have  that “village” raising my children.  It is ok.  sometimes great, but I want to do it.  That makes me so sad that I can’t.  I get video and pictures thru my cell phone of what I am missing, and even though I love it, how pathetic is that?  Yes it is me bashing on myself.  I seem to do that well.  I put this crap on the internet and somehow I feel better. 

For the last several months is hasn’t been about me, that is a “mom” thing…..right?  it has been about everyone else.  kids, hubby, friends, work people, so on.  I got lost in the shuffle.  Ok maybe not me, but my feelings, which really is me.  The mom thing shows thru, be tough, be strong, be sentisitive, be caring, be everything everyone wants you or needs you to be. give that shoulder, or advice, or support in whatever way needed.  But when I need it, why can’t I ask? or have such a difficult time asking?  Stubborn??? YES! Proud?  YES! Stupid? YES!  I am having my small little “night-light-bulb moment.         One thing hasn’t changed………………i need more sleep.  Good night and thank you internet for listening.

My Last Mothers day: (even though Erin and Lizzy are in reverse)

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Funny thing happens when you work, you blink and it’s March.  Opps……
Sorry .
 
I have no clue as to where I should begin.  I don’t think I can remember what has happened to me, us…ya know the family in the last couple of months.  It is all sort of a blur right now.
I can give ya a few highlights on the trio.  Thomas stands out when I think of happenings.  He tried to fly……………………off the toilet and wrecked his chin.  ER visit.  Scar on chin.  Now he is officially a boy.  Who needs a penis to prove that?  All in all he is fine.  He is still adorable, just a new look for him.  I didn’t sweat it.  I figure it is practice for me.  I need new friends so why not at the ER?  I am losing my friend status anyway with all the hours I work.
Erin is just adorable.  She is stunning and sweet. And I just love her.  Ok, maybe that is news, but I thought I would share anyway.
 
Elizabeth, is a pain in the as$., I love her, but she has become beyond needy.  She needs everyone and lets you know.  She will scream her big ole head off, then you pick her up and the huge smile appears.  Every time!
 
Elle cut Ava’s hair.  About one quarter of an inch from her scalp.  It’s pretty.  There is a new book written about it.  Tara, is the writer, and artist.  Coming to Barnes & Noble soon.
 
I too have made some fun news too.  I work a lot…ok that isn’t news.  But the 104.7 fever I had for a week and worked though it.  That is newsworthy.  I wound up at the ER on Sunday night myself. (still looking for new friends, but haven’t acquired any there yet)  I am now fine.  Just a triple infection.  Apparently I do things in triplicate.  I am better now.
 
So other than that, I am alive and somewhat well.  I am cutting back on the hours I am doing.   Obviously it isn’t doing me any good to be doing what I am doing, so I am going to stop……………………ok, cut back.
Maybe in doing so I will actually post some pics with my “new” fancy camera that I wanted so badly last year……yes, hubby got it for me this Christmas..  So if you click your heals and wave the magical wand….one or two may appear……………………………………….Ta’Da!

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Mr. Mom and Pam have not asked to Blog yet.  Yet again , I haven’t asked if they want to.

It is now 12:52 am on Thursday……I think.

 I did get to see the kids a bit today, even though I slept on the couch several times today and messed up thier schedule.  Sorry Hubby!

They miss thier momma.  They all want to be held at the same time.  Or they are ganging up on my trying to hold me down so I don’t leave.  Not sure which.

Even Ava told me 5 times that she loved me and gave me lots and lots of hugs.  No prompting!  So I know I am missed.

My house is is such disarray that Pam asked me how to use the vac!  But to be honest, I don’t care.  I am to tired to care.

And I also have this twitching thing happening to my left eye.  It is so annoying and I never had it before that I can recall.  I guess it is from lack of sleep.  Thoughts?

I am not liking this job.  I hate traveling, even though that is only for a 4 more weeks.  I dislike the company so far and it’s practices.  I know it is too soon to say that, but it is how I feel.  I think I will find time to look for more employment, but when & how?

If not, I hope to only have to stay a year or two.  Hubby should be getting a pretty large raise, where it is almost my salary, so I can quit and go back to being just a PT worker and focus on my family.  It has only been 2 weeks and I see changes which is not good.  Elle is suffering and I am sure her schooling will be too.  I worked with her every night, now I only see her for 20 minutes a day.  I get her up and dressed and on the bus.  She is trying to grasp the concept that mommy has to work, but her learning is what is really bothering me.

Oh, Anyone got Boxtops?  We need them in by December 12th.

Ok, I am not making sense, so I need to get to bed.

Good Night Bloggers.

I am sorry for being absent here, but I have taken on another job which has me working 50+ hours a week and I also am still working my regular job of 20 hours a week. 

I leave the house between 8-8:30am and do not get home till 11:30 pm 7 days a week. So I not see my children.  Which means I have nothing to blog. 

I have to work to pay the bills and save the money for an addition I really need to get in order to house these kids I have.  Buying a bigger house is not an option and I have figured out that the kids just keep growing.  So since they grow, the walls here get smaller.  So you can see how this will pose a problem.  Originally this house was bulit for a family of 3 in 1952.  So it goes without saying that we are pushing the limit before triplets were even a thought.  I have offically have run out of room.  Some of you have been here know of my “creativity” in storage solutions, but it just isn’t working anymore.  Also not having a dining room is also a HUGE issue.  Throwing food on the floor and saying “come and get it” will also pose a problem.  Picture this……Kindergarten in 4 years…..Cafeteria……Lunch time.  Three kids sit on the floor, open their lunch box and dump the contents of the floor and eat.  Can you imagine the phone call I would get from the principal?  ………………One thing for sure, My kids would never get an invite to a birthday party!…………………Ok, so that isn’t such a bad thing, but you get the picture.

So until I have a nother brief moment to blog, I will.  Maybe I should teach “Mr Mom” to blog.  He can tell you all the exciting stories he will have about raising triplets.  Or Pam…….She is the new daytime Mommy.

Off to be I go for that short period of time.

I wish everyone a wonderful Thanksgiving.  I will be working, so I will miss the turkey.  I will be thinking of you all!